Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Three years ago...

Three years ago yesterday morning our phone rang, very early.  A nurse told me that my mom was in full arrest.  I remember yelling at Joe "she's in full arrest....let's go".  Harrison, sensing something was wrong, had come downstairs.  He quickly put on some clothes and got his sister out of bed and dressed her too.  I called my friend Christine "please pray, she's in full arrest".  We drove like bats out of hell and arrived at the facility where she was getting rehab.  But when we got there, she was gone.  They had done everything they could do.  She had a massive MI and pretty much was gone instantly.  Within moments Christine was there too.  We all huddled in the chapel, crying and consoling each other.  Joe, who had been such a blessing to my mom, cried with me.  Harrison was very upset, he was pretty close to Grandma Z.  And Clara, who had just turned 3, wasn't quite sure what was going on.  It was a day that looked like death...cloudy, rainy, dreary, cold.  Eventually, Joe and I went in to see Mom, say good-bye.  I can see that dimly lit room so well.  She looked peaceful.

Then, I had to call my brother.  I knew he would be alone.  I hated that.  But, it's who he is and it's how he handles things best.  Then I called Mom's sister and a couple of other people.  It began a weird day of letting people know that my mom had died.  I don't really like to talk about things that much, and I'm very uncomfortable showing my emotions.  Joe was a great help.  Christine took the kids to her house.  My neighbor Jill showed up with lunch in a matter of no time.  And Joe and I began the process of figuring out how to walk through this together. 

But I have to say, before that day was over, I was so aware of how merciful God was to us.  Due to some health problems and the potential for Mom needing more care, we had moved her down here the first of May.  We had her all set up in her new little place. And we were enjoying getting to see her almost everyday.  The kids were enjoying having a grandma in town.  And Mom got to know Clara in a way that she wouldn't have without those last few months here.  About two weeks before Mom passed away (she was in a skilled bed after a back injruy), my brother came down for the day.  After visiting with Mom a lot, he came over to our house and we talked.  We both knew that things weren't going to be the same for Mom without some huge miracle.  My big brother and I knew she wasn't well.  And we had to utter the words, "if she doesn't improve, she will have to go to full-time care and I don't want to have to do that."  Again...God's mercies fell.  He saved Kim and I from having to make that choice for Mom.  He didn't have to do that for us.  Lots of people have had to put their parents in nursing homes.  They have struggled with guilt, sorrow, pain of seeing your parents go through that.  But God spared us that.  When we got the call that Mom was in full arrest, I knew that I could potentially have to decide whether to put her on a ventilator to prolong her life.  But God spared me that too.  He took her quickly.  That is such a blessing!   God walked with us each step of the way. 

I am blessed with wonderful friends.  Mom's funeral was about 150 miles from here.  But when I walked out to be seated for the funeral, there were four of my friends who had driven the 150 miles that morning.  If you haven't walked this road of loss yet, you probably don't realize just how much that means.  But seeing my friends, brought tears to my eyes and a comfort to my heart.  Saying goodbye to a parent, it's not easy.  I admit I'm a pretty practical person, I can reason things out pretty well.  But when they closed the casket and they were going to bury my mom, I had a little sense of panic.  I've never really had a panic attack, but I had that feeling.  Unreasonable thoughts "wait....are we sure she's really gone".  There's something about knowing you won't physically touch them or see them on this earth again is so overwhelming. 

A couple of weeks later, I was working in Mom's house.  I had boxed up somethings for me and my brother to keep.  I had a box full of files and papers too.  And I kind of said outloud "I'm sure my mom is saying 'that's it? my whole life in a couple of boxes?'"  And as quick as I said that outloud, God spoke to my heart, as clear as could be, "your mom would have worried about those things on earth, but she will never worry about those things again here."  God's mercy! 

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Gotcha Day 2011

It's hard to  believe it's been five years since Clara came into our lives!  But on September 4, 2006, in a room in the civil affairs building in Guangzhou, China we were handed Xin Xiao Huan for the first time.  She was already Clara Ruth Huan Pierce in our hearts, she'd been born in our hearts a long time.  In fact, we actually decided to adopt about the time Clara was conceived.  So, we had prayed for that sweet girl since her first moments of existence. 

On "Gotcha Day" (as we call it....because that's the day we "gotcha") one of the officials from the orphanage handed Clara to me.  She was a big, chunky, football player of a baby girl!  And we fell head over heels in love!!!  We were watching videos from Gotcha Day and our trip to China the other day.  I had kind of forgotten just how chubby our girl was.  She was so serious, sticking her jaw out and furrowing her brow, taking it all in.  When she cried for the first time, it was a deep, throaty cry.  And she did the sweetest thing...she would pat her face really gently to comfort herself.  Oh, it was so sweet and feminine.  One of my favorite pictures is of Clara asleep in my arms on the bus in China with her little hand to her face.  My other favorite is our first picture of Harrison and Clara together.  Oh my goodness, he was so crazy about her!  It's about the happiest face I've ever seen in my life. 

It only took a few days and Clara opened up and we saw her real personality.  She was silly and funny, sweet and affectionate, content and adaptable.  And she's pretty much the same way today.  She is our creative one.  On a pretty regular basis Harrison finds something Clara has done and asks me "WHY would she do that?"  My answer is always "she's creative."  She will literally walk into a wall because she is off in Clara's world somewhere. She draws and colors all the time.  Lately, she will draw all the shapes and inside them she writes the letter that they start with.  She can count by 5's and 10's to 100.  And she can count to 30 by 2's.  The other day she told us she was going to count by 1's.....1...3...5...7...  You get the gist!  She cracks me up!  You never quite know what you're going to find in her bed, or under her bed, or behind her bed.  The other night she crashed into something because she had her panties on her head.  And a few days before that Harrison found her stuck between the head board and the wall...she was trying to reach a sock she had dropped so she figured if she put her legs down there she could pick it up with her toes.  I do have to give it to her, she is a pretty good problem solver most of the time.  She comes up with solutions from a whole other direction than the rest of us.  I love it! 

Ahhhh, five years!  I cannot imagine our life without Clara!  What a blessing she is and we thank God for her everyday.   I still love to think back to the day we landed in Oklahoma City coming home from China.  About 40 friends were gathered at the airport to greet us and meet Clara.  It is one of my all-time favorite days!  And I have to admit, everytime we get off the plane in Oklahoma City now it is pretty much a letdown after that wonderful homecoming!!!

(If you've not seen our story...please feel free to look at http://www.journeytoclara.com/)

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Hello Fifteen! Hello High School!

                      You know your kids are getting old when their cake becomes a fire hazard!
                                The boy still loves himself some chocolate cake! 
                Harrison & Jack had a little fun decorating Mike's car with OSU propaganda! 
                       Cross country boys preparing for the race in the best possible way! 
                                         It was a little bit of a hot day......she's wilting! 
                                          Racing to the finish at Cottonwood Flats!
                                         Excited to have his first medal as a Bulldog!
                                                    Birthday loves with Sister! 
                 Celebrating Harrison (and Judy's) birthday at Eskimo Joe's with Colton.
                                                               First day of kindergarten and high school!

It's just been a weird month around our house!  First the baby turned 6.  Then, I took one to kindergarten and the other to high school.  Then the big one turned 15.  Not quite sure how that happened!  But there's no denying it.  He's 5'10", hairy legs, owns his own razor (for his face, not his legs).....and his birthday cake with 15 candles qualified as a fire hazard.  It's just not right how fast time goes by!!!

Harrison was ready for high school.  He was done with middle school and ready for a new adventure.  So, off he goes as a freshman whether I'm ready or not.  And so far, so good.  Our high school has done a great job of helping the freshmen (and their parents....cuz it's really all about me, right?) transition into high school.  Harrison started running with the cross country team a couple of weeks before school started.  And I just have to say....I'd never make it!  It has been over 100 degrees just about every day for the past two months.  But he is out there running in the heat of the day everyday.  No wonder he's so skinny!  The day before his birthday H ran in his first official high school cross country meet.  It was so hot, no wind, and Clara truly thought she was going to melt.  But he did great and came home with his first medal from high school.  So fun to watch him work hard and do well.  And this group of boys on the cross country team are such great kids, so encouraging and positive!  The first night of practice the coach prayed with the boys before practice....forever earning him a soft spot in my heart. 

On Harrison's birthday we were heathens and skipped church and took our boy and his buddy Colton to Eskimo Joe's in Stillwater.  Clara had announced several weeks earlier that Judy (her treasured bitty baby) also has August 28th as her birthday.  Harrison was NOT amused to share his birthday with Judy.  On the way to Stillwater Clara told us that Judy was turning 10 months old this birthday.  Harrison was quick to explain that it wasn't her birthday if she was just 10 months old.  He quieted down when we reminded him of his imaginary brothers he had when he was little.  They were twins, Jack and Jackie, and they were 2 and 3 years old.  Yes....he said they were twins.  He also had an imaginary sister, Katie, who was either 9 or 16, depending on whether she needed to drive herself somewhere.  Harrison did not find it amusing at all when Judy got a high chair at Eskimo Joe's to eat lunch with us.  I think Colton found it pretty amusing though!  : ) 

After some shoe and jeans shopping that afternoon we celebrated Harrison's birthday at our flock (small group from church) meeting.  We had borrowed our friend Mike & Trudy's car to go to Stillwater.  And Mike had not so subtely put a bunch of notes about OU #1 (or some other nonsense) on the car.  Well, Harrison had a little fun filling the car with orange notes about OSU and Orange Power before we returned the car to Mike that night.  Hee!  Hee!  We crack ourselves up!!! 

Fifteen years has flown by and I sure enjoy being this kid's mom!!!  It's fun watching and seeing the young man he's becoming.  And I'm curious to see what God has in store for him in the future!  Happy Birthday Buddy!!!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Hello Six! Hello Kindergarten!

                                                     Clara wanted to help decorate her own cake...
                                        Now I think I know why! 
                        Ivy was Clara's birthday gift from Mommy and Daddy.
                                             Judy and Ivy...her best girls!
                           Cannot believe there are 6 candles on that cake already! 
           Perfect end to the day...matching jammies for Clara and Judy from Grandpa Pierce.
                         The birthday party cake....just a "tetch" prettier than the one I made. 
         A certain "friend" who shall remain nameless, Christine, gave her a microphone!
                               Blowing out the candles at her party with her buddies.
                                   Opening gifts with friends is always fun!
                                                       Girlie Girl!!!
                I love a yard full of kids!  Thank goodness my neighbors do too! 
                           Tenth annual first day of school picture, second year for Clara!
                            Clara and her teacher, Mrs. Hawkins, who Harrison had for kindergarten too. 

My baby is six!  Seriously, how did that happen???  On August 30, it will be five years since we got on a plane to go to China to bring Clara home.   A couple of weeks ago we celebrated her sixth birthday.  Last week she started kindergarten.  And look at her, she looks so big and grown up! 

For Clara's birthday she got to pick what she wanted to eat.  She chose Freddy's.  She always chooses Freddy's.  So, off we went with Papa Ken, Nini, Kendra and Kelsey to Freddy's.  Who wouldn't love a greasy hamburger (or hot dog in Clara's case) and some skinny fries with ranch dressing?  No one here was complaining!  Unfortunately, Buddy had his first ever high school cross country practice during dinner, so he missed out.  But we waited for him to come home to have cake with our friends the Merideths and the Surrittes.  Clara was so happy to get an Ivy doll and some new clothes for Judy for her birthday.  Papa and Nini and the girls gave her lots of art projects.  And my "bestie" Christine and the Merideth clan gave her a microphone.  Yes, people, I said my "bestie" gave my child a microphone.  I might add that last Christmas they gave her a darling book that they recorded the story in...love that...but it has no volume control.  Harrison woke up on Christmas morning saying "do you know what I woke up to...the sound of Christine's voice!"   A couple years ago I believe it was an "educational toy" that TALKED....LOUDLY!  They think I'm old and I won't remember....but I remember. 

For Clara's friend party we planned a swim party.  Now, it has been over 100 degrees here for something like 45 days.  We haven't had rain in a coon's age (whatever that is).  But the morning of the party date...it stormed.  And it rained and stormed and was cloudy all day.  So, I moved the party to our house.  Where of course, the sun promptly came out and the skies were blue.  Clara is pretty easy going, she was tickled to have the party here and when I told her I'd decorate some tables and put games on them, she told me, "Or....I could sing!"  Did I mention she got a microphone for her birthday?  Anyway, I digress! So all her buddies came here, we ate cake, opened presents, played Hungry Hungry Hippo (which her brother gave her for her birthday...and I might mention is also quite loud!), and turned 'em loose outside to run, blow bubbles and play.  I have to admit, it was fun!  I love a yard full of kids!  There is just nothing like it.  There were the flower pickers, who blew bubbles and giggled.  And there were the tag players, who chased, tagged, and giggled.  And at the end of the evening, there was one very, very happy six year old. 

Then, before we knew it, kindergarten started.  Clara was so excited to get Mrs. Hawkins as her teacher since Harrison also had her.  And it was a bonus to have her buddy Jack and a few other friends in her class.  She told me she was excited to get to make new friends in kindergarten.  She was just as happy as could be to start school.  No fears, no tears.  She is such an adaptable kid!  She never ceases to amaze me.  I'm one of the few people who is glad we still have half-day kindergarten at our school.  I'm afraid first grade is going to come way too soon.  But like I tell Clara, we are going to enjoy six every day that you are six until you turn seven.  And we will!

Monday, August 8, 2011

Farewell Five!

It's my last night parenting a five year old.  It's a little sad!  I know this time will definitely be the last time, no surprises in five years like last time.  I have to admit, I love five!  It's a fun, fun age!  And Clara is a fun, fun kid!  She makes me smile, shake my head, and laugh out loud every day.  She has to be one of the funniest girls in the world.  And one of the sweetest and snuggliest girls too. 

Turning six means there's no more time to decide if she'll go to school this year or not.  It's official, she starts kindergarten in 11 days.  I'm so glad we are one of the few schools who doesn't have all day kindergarten this year.  I was NOT geared up for that just yet.  We were setting family goals a couple weeks ago.  A couple of Clara's goals for the year are to learn how to read and to ride a bike without training wheels.  Today she was sitting with me reading her Bob books to me while wiggling her front two top teeth.  So, she's going to do it!  She's just going to keep growing up!  Dang it!  I have talked and bargained with her for weeks trying to get her to stay five.  I was even game to go backwards and let her be four.  But not really ready to give up my baby to six just yet.  (I won't even talk about the hairy-legged man child in the other room.....my other baby....that is for another day.)  A few months ago she would tell me "I'm trying to stay little for you Mommy."  But as her birthday draws near, she is all about being six!  She was one squirrely girl before bedtime.  Spinning, twirling, giggling....okay, she ended up with her underwear on her head.  Really! 

I can't think about Clara's birthday without thanking God for our sweet little blessing.  He took us all the way around the world to bring us together.  And we are thankful everyday.  And I am so thankful to a woman in China, who I do not know, who shared a huge piece of her heart with me.  I pray right now for her, that she will know deep in her heart how much her baby girl is loved.  And even more than that, I pray that she will know the Lord and He will be her savior.  And in Him, she will find a peace that passes all understanding. 

Farewell Sweet Five!  It's been an amazing, fun, blessed year!  I can't wait to see what God has in store this next year!!!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Road Trip Summer 2011

Well....I never got to the rest of June.  And apparently July has vaporized in the heat.  So, here it is, August and I'm way behind on blogging.  But I'll just have to write things as I remember them over the next few weeks.  Of course, the way my memory is these days that may mean a whole lot of nothing! 

So in July we took a road trip.  We spent eight days driving to see family and friends in Indiana and Ohio.  We thought it would be fun to drive as far as possible during the hottest summer on record in many years.  And I'm happy to say, we all came home alive.  It was close a couple of times, but no one was harmed in the making of this vacation.  The first day we drove to St. Louis and spent the night.  It was equally hot in St. Louis, but we had a great room at the Westin, right across from the Cardinals stadium.  We ate some yummy fish for dinner and enjoyed the Heavenly Beds at the Westin.  Joe was the deal finder and managed to get us a great room at a cheap price, he just kept asking what he might get credit for (like being old, working for the school district, etc.).  We got up the next day and went to check out the Arch before we got on the road again.  We all rode up to the top of the Arch and enjoyed the view.  I remember doing this with my parents as a kid, so it was kind of fun to take my own kids.  The last time we stopped there Harrison would have no part of going up in the Arch.  But it was pretty cool, even though the ride up is a bit claustrophobic.  And to prove that I know someone everywhere we go, we ran into the Harberts at the Arch.  That was a nice surprise! 

Next stop....Indiana.  We drove to New Castle, unloaded our bags and went directly to Top Hat Pizza (without passing go).  I admit, I'm not a pizza snob, I like it, I'll eat it most anywhere.  But Top Hat Pizza....it is truly the best pizza ever!  We did refrain from eating there all 5 days we were in Indiana.  Which shows that we do have some small amount of self control.  Very small...very, very small! 

We had the best time staying with Joe's cousins Lisa and John.  They have a beautiful home that has cornfields all around it.  Clara loves to stay in the frilly girlie room.  She announced "I love this room" over and over.  And we had fun staying up talking and laughing each night.  It was great to spend time with Joe's dad and visit with lots of other family too.  It's fun to see the newest generation of Dicken kiddos and I loved getting my baby fix with sweet Alaina.  We also made a run up to Muncie to check out Ball State.  And as you can imagine, that set off a whole new set of "ball" jokes and puns.  Why do men become 12 years old anytime there is anything with the word "ball" in it???

While we were there, we made a day trip over to Cincinatti to see two of our Xinhui girls!  We met up with the Dakters and Morans and let Clara, Maia and Anna have the whole day to play together.  There were lots of "ahhhhh" moments watching our girls reconnect.  As soon as Anna saw Clara she just ran up to her and hugged and kissed her.  Then Maia arrived and both Clara and Anna were so thrilled to see her.  They all donned their matching shirts that Maia brought and away they went.  There was giggling, hugging, running, more giggling and lots of fun.  It is amazing how these little girls, who slept next to each other in cribs in China, are so connected even though we don't get to see each other very often.  They always just pick up where they left off and have so much fun together.  I have these pictures in my mind, with the little girls all holding hands and running through the museum.  We were all wishing our 4th Xinhui girl, Alyse, could have been there with us!  We missed her so much!

So....my top five things from our Indiana road trip were...(I don't include the Xinhui girls visit....it's in a top 5 all its own!).

#5 - Family Fun with Dicken clan.  I always love fun times with the Dicken clan (Joe's mom's side of the family).  They truly are some of my favorite people!  We laughed, enjoyed Top Hat pizza, laughed some more, held sweet babies, enjoyed the little kids laughter, ate some yummy peanut butter pie, and watched the Dicken boys, who were little when I joined this family, all grown up now.  I loved that when we walked to our car that night Harrison said "so....we have a pretty cool family." 

#4 - Late night visits with Lisa and John.  Oh okay....and a glass of wine....or maybe Sangria....or whatever!  It's not my fault that Lisa was trying out new Sangria recipes while we were there in preparation for Lindsey's wedding reception.  I'm just helpful that way.  Lisa is the source for family history and has lots of fun stories.  And John....well, he's naughty.  And I'm trying to deprogram my kids.  But, he is hilarious! 

#3 - Garage sale Alf and jewelry run.  Joe's dad is a collector.  We are not.  He loves to find great things and collect them.  And he remembers if you like something.  So....he took us over to a garage sale because they had a talking "Alf" doll and my son is obsessed with Alf.  (No joke, he often says "well, I learned that from Alf".  Which is not always a great thing.)  This same sale had some classic costume jewelry from the 50's and 60's.  So Clara got a tub full of clip on earrings, necklaces and bracelets.  Oh, it brought back memories of me dressing up in my mom's jewelry. 

#2 - Toy boat, toy boat, toy boat.  I'm not sure why or how it happened.  But Harrison got started on trying to say toy boat 5 times fast with his grandpa.  And Joe's dad got laughing until he cried!  They went on and on and on and I have to admit, it was hilarious.  It was great to see Joe's dad laughing hysterically!  Makes me smile just thinking about it. 

#1 - Top Hat Pizza.  I bet nobody saw that one coming!  There are no words to describe it....just YUM!!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Classic Conversations

Living with a 14 year old and a 5 year old brings some classic conversations.  Somedays I just have to laugh out loud at the absurdity of some conversations and statements.  I remember when we wished our kids would talk.  We have moved past that dream.  And I'll admit that more than once over the years we offered to pay Harrison to be quiet in the car,  Which I might add, he never collected a dime because he just couldn't be quiet.  He literally would just burst out a big old squeak because he just couldn't keep it all inside.  Now...his sister is following suit.  The other day I took the kids to Kingfisher (where I lived all through grade school).  At one point I think Clara had talked non-stop for a good two hours without taking a breath.  So I asked her if she could possibly be quiet for a little bit.  Here is the classic conversation that followed with her brother.
     H - "Yeah, Sister, you haven't stopped talking in forever."
     C - "Oh yeah!  Well, you're talking like a duck."
     H - "I'm not talking like a duck.  I didn't say quack.  Could you just be quiet?"
     C - "I love geese." 
     H - "What?  That doesn't even make sense."
     C - "Exactly!" 

HUH?  "Exactly" is Clara's favorite new quip.  Once in a blue moon she uses it appropriately (and totally by coincidence).  

Another day in the car Clara asked me to play "opposites" with her.  I named something and she named the opposite.  She did really good...for awhile....then she just cracked us up!
     J - "High"
     C - "Low"
     J - "Hot"
     C - "Cold"
     H - "Soft"
     C - "Crunchy"

HUH? 

She also has a talent for nursery rhymes....here are a few of our favorites.

      "Baa! Baa! Black sheep, have you anymore.  Yes sir.  Yes sir.  Three and Four..."  

      "Hey Little Diddle, the cat and the fiddle...."

In case you were wondering, she doesn't like "funder" or "tomatoes" (think storms, not vegetables).  And she has the Pierce family gift for song lyrics.  I'm proud to say, that Clara loves Michael Jackson.  No really...LOVES his music!  If she hears one of his songs coming on the radio, her face just lights up and she gets so excited.  She knows the entire "Bad" cd.  Honestly, she knows "Liberian Girl".  These are proud parenting moments...excuse me while I wipe the tears of joy.  Here are a few of Clara's lyrics to MJ songs....

     "I'm mad, I'm mad, I'm really, really mad"....from MJ's song "Bad".
     "I'm looking at the man in the river" or occasionally "I'm looking at the man in the liver" or another favorite "I'm looking
at the man in the middle"....from MJ's "Man in the Mirror". 

Of course, Harrison has some classic song lyrics too.  Our favorite is...

     "No fried dust, gotta make a living"....from "Low Rider"

And I'll go ahead and admit that my brother called me a total idiot when I  told him that I thought the lyrics "I want a new truck, one that won't make me sick" were incredibly stupid.  He informed me that Huey Lewis was saying "I want a new drug".  OHHHHH!  That makes a lot more sense.  And Joe argued with me at length one night years ago about the song "We want the funk" by George Clinton...he just swore the song said "we want the bump, gotta have the bump".  Of course, he was going to prove me wrong and look it up on the computer....which did not end in his favor.  : )  Did I mention that we are gifted with song lyrics.  Someday I'll tell you about Joe's gift for foreign languages too.  We are a family with many talents. 

Today we drove through Sonic to get drinks.  We hadn't driven through with Joe in awhile.  We kind of forgot it seems like he's had a stroke when he's ordering at the drive through.  He orders one thing SLOWLY.  Then pauses so long that the waiter thinks he is done and confirms his order.  Then he has to start over and add the second item.  Again, long pause....waiter confirms order a second time....but wait, he still has two more drinks to order.  So by the time he's actually finished ordering, we have all broken out in the Steve Martin ""I - would - like - a - ham - burger" routine from Pink Panther.  And we are the funniest people we know, all doing the hamburger schtick.  But I will say, this line of conversation is a great improvement over the whole "Weinergate" conversation that followed at lunch.  Geez!  We were trying to imagine what kind of campaign signs Congressman Weiner had.  Really, when you think about it, that's not an easy name to make campaign signs for.  Here are some of our top campaign slogans...
     "Vote Weiner"
     "I'm for Weiner"
     "I'm with Weiner "(with finger pointing to your neighbor)
     "Vote Weiner and be a Winner"

And on that weiner...I mean note...I'm done!